This is a comment I received on my blog this morning from a very dear friend i've had for most of my life. I was so touched by it and she asked that I post it to my blog. I'm very hesitant to because it does seem a little personal but she already posted it as a comment so what the heck! I just wanted to say, (tearing up) that I am blown away. There actually needs to be a better word for blown away, I need some male input here.... like nuclear blasted away, by the emails and letters and cards and calls and even sweet packages i've received in the mail. I don' really even know what to say. It's not so much about the who's doing what or what their doing, but the LOVE I feel when their doing it, the look in their eyes or their sweet words. For me, Love does heal, I rely on Love to get me through everything, with out it I know i'd be dead. Love to me is my air.
I feel like Thank You is such a cheap attempt. It's crazy how you don't really believe there's anything you personally have to offer to the world, how your existence seems to not really matter other then to your own personal family. What purpose do I really have? Why am I really here? and What promises did I make of what i'd become and accomplish before I came to this earth? I'm beginning to really truelly understand mine. That is one wonderful thing trials do for you. They MAKE you understand, MAKE you appreciate and MAKE you rely on our Heavenly Father more then ever in your life. Now, I do know. I know and understand a lot of things. Today, I am grateful for my life. I'm grateful for the good, the bad and the ugly. I know my road and everyone elses is still going to have really SUCKY days, and really AMAZING days. My life either seems too good too be true, or too bad to be real. That's who I am and that's just the way it is. I'll take it! Today and everyday, i'm grateful and in His debt.
Thank you dear friend for your comment
and for all the other ones too.
I can't believe all of the things that you have been through in your life. 10 years ago I remembered thinking "I wouldn't have survived a tenth of what you had already been through". Your entire life has been a fight, a battle to overcome! And each time you get knocked down, you stand up, gather your strength, rely on your faith and somehow carry on. I am so overcome by you and your trials. I know this might be a little too personal but i've read your blog for years and am surprised a little that you keep the bad things out of it, you keep so many trials to your self, .... and yet you have this beautiful life. You choose happiness, you choose to fight. You inspire me so much. WIth each trial that i'm faced, I think, I know mariane would think this was not even a big deal and she would smile and serve her way through it. and you do, each time, after all these years, what has it been mariane, like 20 years of your precious life you had to FIGHT like hell to survive, I know our Lord sent you to us to inspire us, to encourage us and to instill faith in us. You are my inspiration, through every tough day of my life. If people really knew you they would love you the way I do. They would appreciate you as the true gift to us all that you really are. I will spend my day today crying. Crying for sadness of your illness and crying for joy for your survival. We need you to survive, this world would literally be a darker place without your glowing spirit and pure joy that you radiate from every part of you. Bless you my sweet sweet dear friend. I love you more then ever! Survive, so we can too! k.p.
"We are not human beings on a spiritual journey but spiritual beings on a human journey" Unknown
We have three adorable little boys, Andrew, Nick and Lock. We've ended up in Utah after living in a few other fun places. We love having our boys, we love life and all of it's callenges and I'm crazy in love with my wonderful husband. I don't know how I got so lucky to win the heart of a real genuine Prince Charming.
Us, From the Beginning
This is a photo collage from the very beginning of Clint and I. I thought it would be fun for first timers or old friends to see us from the start.
Andrew 5 Years Old
I'm smart, organized & creative. I'm constantly asking my mom the funniest questions and I love to learn. I like to tell jokes, play with legos, transformers and when I grow up, I want to save people. Look at this face, I'm cute too.
Nicholas 2 1/2 Years Old
I'm the funniest and cutest little boy, I make the cutest faces, I'm obsessed with basketball, and I repeat everything Andrew says and does.
Lochlan 6 months old
I'm the happiest little baby, I love to be snuggled and kissed and i'm a pro at rolling around and army crawling. I have beautiful eyes and a smile that melts everyones heart. I'm everything my mommy ever dreamed of and more.
Each of these songs have deep meaning to Clint and I, the "you say nothing at all", Clint sang that to me at our wedding and I cried so hard watching him kneel on one knee and have tears in his eyes that I had SNOT running all down my mouth